A little time off.

Over the course of these last few weeks of my first semester in college, I have realized how much I don't know about what I want to do or where I want to go. I have been focused all my life on having a plan and living up to the high expectation that has been set by everyone I know.

I called my parents earlier this morning to talk of the idea of taking a semester off to truly find myself, what I stand for and what means the most to me. 

the silence on the phone spoke loud enough for me to know how my parents thought of the idea but they didn't say "NO" so my chances are still there. 

My hope for this coming year is a lot of changes. one thing I learned was that I haven't been a friend to the people who cared so much for me, which is something I am going to change. I have this burning idea and passion to change something in this world and I'm working to that idea. 

My reasoning behind taking a half year off is so I can make my mark on the world, find myself and truly make the impact I dreamed of making.

What I hope to do is apply for the internship for Invisible Children and be a roadie for 10 weeks where I would travel around and go and share the news of the LRA conflict. I would travel in a van and gain the knowledge of international aid, grassroots movements along with learning about public relations. I am also looking into the idea of working with YWAM (youth with a mission) where I would go through discipleship training for 6 months, by learning about God, hearing God and going out into the world where ever the Lord has brought me to talk of Him. 

The only thing I can do for now is pray for my heart and that the Lord would work out and show me which path he wants me to travel, whether it be taking a year off, or staying at Western. 

I am thankful for the Lord placing on my heart these ideas and can't wait to see where he takes me in the next couple of months. 

For he says,

“In the time of my favor I heard you,
    and in the day of salvation I helped you.”

I tell you, now is the time of God’s favor, now is the day of salvation. 

-2 Corinthians 6:2